Wednesday, June 3, 2009 Y 11:57 AM
you may say that im selfish
i guess this will be the best for you ba
since i know what kind of girl im to you
den let it be ba
hab you ever ask me
what i want?
do you know what i want?
hab you ever tried understanding me?
you think that you know me but actually you are just using your point of view looking at me
and you think that it is the best for me
im trying my best to know you
but you are always unwilling to tell me what seriously happen to you
and everytime i hab to find out from other people after so long
i know that im a nobody to you
you told the person that im always giving you false hopes
but that is not false hopes
i cannot bring myself to accept cause your own thinking always gives me creeps
den we will end up quarreling almost everyday
is this what you want?
x told me to trust him to believe that you will be a great guy
and that once you did that is cause you dunno how to react or what so ever
x said that he promises that you will be good to me
how i hope x is there to help me to understand and know you better
he's the only person i can think of who knows you the best other den her
as what people always says 'once bitten twice shy'
do you really know that feeling?
loneliness?
helpless?
when there is a person there for you
that person is like an angel
i will tend to depend alot on that person
idk why
but 2 times already
and i really think that there is no such thing as being friends if not suitable for being couple
im so afraid to go on the first step
and later end up like this again
you can say that im a coward
but who the hell in this world will go do one thing that they know end up you will just make another enemy?
i hab lots to say but my mind just hang out of a sudden
this is what i can think of
maybe is better to be your guardian angel
and stand by you
since this is what you want
i know you are reading this
so dun be offended or what
this is only what i feel
you can disagree or what so ever
but i just hope that you will get well
i will be there if you need me
but unless you are willing to look for me when you hab problems
and share those troubles with me
i wun say that im good at consoling people
but i can lend you a listening ear if you need it
at last i still must say things that you dun like to hear
i think you know what i mean
i dun think it will be good saying it here
Labels: did i make the right choice?
